It usually begins as "I dun care that much about you".
And it ends with "Im the only one who care too much".
Well, I saw a picture of hers holding that guy's hand, posted by herself in her blog, it's her Sabah trip with church members. Blush radiating from her face, her usual face reaction when she's shy or feeling hot.
So you didnt choose me after all.
There's no turning back dy, I gotta admit it, I missed my chance or it was wrong from the beginning.
Well, I dunno.
After all these years, I still dunno how to love a person probably.
Im no longer ready to love.
There's a photo album in my computer, namely "happiness", all the photos with you inside.
"Happiness" somehow is written on the Sabah beach without me there.
You never really love me right, Grace?
He's your boyfriend but you lied to me? Funny.
Other people will replace me afterwards and the cycle begins again. Funny.
Fate.
Where should I go now?
Sunday, 27 December 2015
Saturday, 21 November 2015
What does Love Mean?
Before going for Mahsa Dental Faculty Annual Dinner 2015, accidentally I found this lovely article, and thus I decided to share it here. I believe in love, time and again. Do you?
See How 4-8 Year-Old Kids Describe Love
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds: "What does love mean?"
The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think...
_____
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
Rebecca - age 8
_____
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4
_____
"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4
_____
"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7
_____
"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss."
Emily - age 8
_____
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)
_____
"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."
Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)
_____
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7
_____
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6
_____
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.
He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."
Cindy - age 8
_____
"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine - age 5
_____
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."
Chris - age 7
_____
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
Mary Ann - age 4
_____
"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." (Now THIS is love!)
Lauren - age 4
_____
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an image!)
Karen - age 7
_____
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."
Mark - age 6
_____
"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
Jessica - age 8
_____
And the final one...
Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.
The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.
Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.
When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said,
"Nothing, I just helped him cry."
Great to read all these cute thoughts, feeling touched and warm when I actually experienced some of these. *Appreciate every good moments in life,hehe~*
Can't wait to see her later during Annual Dinner. :)
See How 4-8 Year-Old Kids Describe Love
A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds: "What does love mean?"
The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined. See what you think...
_____
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."
Rebecca - age 8
_____
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4
_____
"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4
_____
"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7
_____
"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss."
Emily - age 8
_____
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)
_____
"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."
Nikka - age 6 (we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)
_____
"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday."
Noelle - age 7
_____
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6
_____
"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.
He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."
Cindy - age 8
_____
"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine - age 5
_____
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford."
Chris - age 7
_____
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
Mary Ann - age 4
_____
"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones." (Now THIS is love!)
Lauren - age 4
_____
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." (what an image!)
Karen - age 7
_____
"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."
Mark - age 6
_____
"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
Jessica - age 8
_____
And the final one...
Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child.
The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbor was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife.
Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman's yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there.
When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbor, the little boy said,
"Nothing, I just helped him cry."
Great to read all these cute thoughts, feeling touched and warm when I actually experienced some of these. *Appreciate every good moments in life,hehe~*
Can't wait to see her later during Annual Dinner. :)
Tuesday, 18 August 2015
19/8/15
It's another new sem to go as I went through year 1 as dentistry student.
I used to be ambitious in academic aspect, well, the flame of enthusiasm I still have it, the difference is - how to cope with my complicated heart meanwhile dueling with the usual challenges of studies.
2014/15 is a disaster year for me, I really feel lost all the time.
Recording the things happening throughout the year here, just for record purpose.
One of my favourite coursemate, Guan, passed away during badminton training. It's so torturing to recall that particular night. 6 coursemates and me went to Guan's house in Penang together to say final goodbye to him. I like this guy, he's my kind of people, which can get along well with me in a lot of ways. Sometimes things are just inevitable I suppose.
One thing after another, Sharence suffered from an accident. She's like the battery in my group b class, always love to have her jumping here and there, irreplaceable...dont you think so? You're 2 year younger than me and I admire ur spirit and personality so much, so I have always treated you as if you're my own sister. Wherever you're in the future, trust me, you have got everything to make it through the ups and downs of life and have faith in miracle as well as life. Jiayou~
Afterward, feel so sick of mahsa people and disappointed over few good friends. Learning to accept the facts that this world is complicated and I certainly still have a lot to learn and have to grow up more mentally. I took advices from friends and break some bonds with certain friends, you know, for better people to come and to live happier. It's so hurt to be unliked by good friends over some unknown reasons. I no longer have any grudge towards you.
There's a story about scorpion and a kind man. When the scorpion is going to drown in the water, the kind man uses his hand to take the scorpion outta the water. The scorpion bites him and falls back into the water. Little did you know, the kind man still wants to save the scorpion and reaches his hand to the scorpion once again. There it go, the scorpion bites him again. Still, he keeps trying to save the scorpion nonetheless. People asks him: " It bites you! Why you still persist in saving it? " He answers: "Scorpion has the natural instinct to bite. How can I abandon my own kind nature just because it bites?"
Do you get it?
I had figured out the answer I need. Yay~
I used to be ambitious in academic aspect, well, the flame of enthusiasm I still have it, the difference is - how to cope with my complicated heart meanwhile dueling with the usual challenges of studies.
2014/15 is a disaster year for me, I really feel lost all the time.
Recording the things happening throughout the year here, just for record purpose.
One of my favourite coursemate, Guan, passed away during badminton training. It's so torturing to recall that particular night. 6 coursemates and me went to Guan's house in Penang together to say final goodbye to him. I like this guy, he's my kind of people, which can get along well with me in a lot of ways. Sometimes things are just inevitable I suppose.
One thing after another, Sharence suffered from an accident. She's like the battery in my group b class, always love to have her jumping here and there, irreplaceable...dont you think so? You're 2 year younger than me and I admire ur spirit and personality so much, so I have always treated you as if you're my own sister. Wherever you're in the future, trust me, you have got everything to make it through the ups and downs of life and have faith in miracle as well as life. Jiayou~
Afterward, feel so sick of mahsa people and disappointed over few good friends. Learning to accept the facts that this world is complicated and I certainly still have a lot to learn and have to grow up more mentally. I took advices from friends and break some bonds with certain friends, you know, for better people to come and to live happier. It's so hurt to be unliked by good friends over some unknown reasons. I no longer have any grudge towards you.
There's a story about scorpion and a kind man. When the scorpion is going to drown in the water, the kind man uses his hand to take the scorpion outta the water. The scorpion bites him and falls back into the water. Little did you know, the kind man still wants to save the scorpion and reaches his hand to the scorpion once again. There it go, the scorpion bites him again. Still, he keeps trying to save the scorpion nonetheless. People asks him: " It bites you! Why you still persist in saving it? " He answers: "Scorpion has the natural instinct to bite. How can I abandon my own kind nature just because it bites?"
Do you get it?
I had figured out the answer I need. Yay~
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